sharing bed at a relative's house.

tongue pushed into my sister's mouth into mine. she is older..meybe 14 , me 3 years younger..but she not taking advantage...i knew what she were wanting. needing. and i wanted...wanted what i had seen people doing around me. on telly. i guess parents, but i blocked out what i knew of their fucking, i just seemed to have knowlegde of these acts.

tongue pashing. the wet full tongue. its filling the space of my mouth. not simply filling it but meeting my want. the wide wonder of it. that and her being female girl. like me. like me. same as me. of same blood. that close.

thats what i wanted. close as anything. thats what i have never had and always wanting with a man. i want myself. want myself as i fuck.

and so i fuck . put hands up arse. to feel akin. close to how they feel when they inside a girl. close. the warm wet muscle that they feel. but that i cant get sensation from. just want to feel something of that sense they get of pushing their penis in.

i slide up body. on him. to be with him. in him. another closeness. without closing upon. no grip. no hold. want an internal pull . that is the importance of this all. just that feeling of super close. not the remove got from the kinkyness of such acts as hand up arse. jsut wanting close fuck. closest fuck. the sinking in. embody another just for moment. not to take from you. of you. but something so close as this close.

take me. i finally whisper to you ..fuck me. fuck me. i pleading for closeness. the close that just comes with fucking your own flesh blood older sister. and it hightened with there being no no mention of this. on either side. ...kiss her hard and think of it as practice. focus so hard on it being practice... but its more than that. getting more. the closest fuck. the closeness of fucking with her. the whole time wondering if this sense is what she is getting off on.
cub girl