From: kut
Date: Mon, 16 Apr 2001 20:34:17 -0400
To: doll yoko
dear doll,

lots of tears on this side of the globe as i am breaking up once again with the beautiful jap-boy of my dreams. very cool, nice boy but also pain in the ass to be with. also literally, our sex life had turned into a lot of hard, anal sex. as if he was taking some of that japanese anime stuff a bit too seriously. my boy has a sadistic streak and is very self-obsessed.

of course i try not to think about this and concentrate on my work. the boy has affected me a lot and my ability to write. i can't even write emails anymore. i also am at the end of the academic year and as such very much burnt out and trying to quit routine-work mode.

overall my life is okay. but it was much better when i had fun with the boy.

tell me something about how to trick sadistic boys without getting hurt?

i will here send a picture of K dressed as a girl in our early glory days. i might have sent this to you already, sorry if that's the case. meanwhile he has cut his hair and looks more hip and fashionable with the times.

the problem was .... his mother visiting him very often, staying with him, sleeping together in our love bed (ours? ). she did not like the fluids of K and myself. i could nost stop feeling so very hurt about their bond and strange attitude.

he was in many ways my dream boy.

love,

kut